Flashback Friday - A Mother’s Unconditional Love
There are many beautiful forms of love, and most only come close to the depth and ferocity of that of a loving mother. Perhaps it’s because she is the carrier of life and the birther of a whole new person, and perhaps it’s more deeply connected to the Divine feminine that exists in our Mother Earth. We do know that there is a certain lightness in the soft, flow of femininity that exists. When it comes to unconditional love here on this plane of existence, the formula is way more tricky to accomplish than we often give it credit for. Hat’s off to the excellence of anyone who has truly felt and shared unconditional love. It’s way too rare and so incredibly precious.
If I had a wish for humanity, it would be that nobody would leave this earth without experiencing unconditional love here. I have known it and it’s more than a treasure for me.
January 29 2020 my darling mother passed from this glorious World. I knew she was failing, walking less, having more trouble with basic life than she had ever had before. I tried to ignore it and push the reality away, sometimes with frustration that she wasn’t who she used to be, sometimes with Grace for all she was anyway, and sometimes with fear and sorrow for the impending passage of my dear lifelong friend.
She rang me one day in 2019 and asked tearfully if I could come home to her. She wasn’t managing life very well and really needed me. In all the years she’d never asked. I was in Maui and life was pretty darned good.
It was however, quite lonely, and not as compelling as my darling mum’s request. A relationship I had begun to fall head before heels had stopped in it’s tracks, due to many small mitigating circumstances. Apart from great work for great pay, a gorgeous land of bright blue ocean and vivid green hills, that had embraced me with the love of Aloha from the elders, with open arms, I was ready to let go of my life and go stand beside her in hers.
I sold all my belongings, said goodbye to some extraordinary people, including a dear family I had grown so close to over many years, and prepared to leave paradise with hope that grey England would be compensated by spending time with the mother of my heart.
The last days of my departure were magical. My family from California came to stay and we shared a week of beach, sailing with hundreds of spinner dolphins and meals spent in laughter and joy. As I was taking them to the airport, we walked into the booth my man sat at. He and I connected and fell into the heady romance that books and music are made of, for the last 3 days. All the reasons we hadn’t worked before were gone. Our time was extraordinary.
The next 5 months were sweet, less work, more time with my mum. We baked together, watched her favorite shows on television, and chatted for hours. She was in and out of hospital and when she came home, I had her best meals ready, and time simply sitting and being together. I wasn’t fulfilled with anything on the dream board of my life, and yet the time with her was more special than I could have ever known. The time came for me to return to Maui and to the man I had so beautifully reconnected to. She graciously released me. We set her up with lots of help. She had good carers coming in every day, at least twice a day, to feed her, help her and she had a lady to clean her home once a week.
I left feeling that I would see her again. We spoke almost every day. It was sweet. I missed her.
Within 3 months she passed.
I honestly didn’t know if I would wish to continue here on earth without her support, love and tireless level of kindness that had always been with me. Fortunately she helped set things in motion before she passed. She knew I had a wonderful man, and she could leave knowing I was in a solid and beautiful partnership. A mother’s love when it’s that pure is like no other. I will miss her physically, even though she walks with me and talks with me every single day. I am blessed to continue to be loved by her.
Please share your story of unconditional love below in the comments section…. I would love to hear your story and what touches your inner being!!
Love & Blessings,
Ruth
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